Procrastination

Sooooo…. I seem to be a few posts behind. Suck it up Sunday is not off to the greatest start, is it?

Allow me to explain: starting school was a bit tougher than I thought it would be. Eventhough I only have classes from 8.30am – 11.50am, there’s a lot on my plate. Mainly a lot of homework! Also, soccerseason has started again, so I’ve been working on match-days.
To top it all off, I’ve been sick for over a week, which meant no school. Really bad timing, seeing as I have my exam this Friday = 5 days from now! I’m 7 chapters behind, and I just can’t seem to pull myself together and study.
I really want to, because if I don’t pass, I can’t start ‘the real school’ and get My degree….
But I’m just soooo good at doing everything else… And I’m not talking about any productive stuff either… Noooo I’ve been watching every series possible, gone through every single pin on Pinterest AND watched so many videos on YouTube that I’ve lost count.
I can’t be the only one who’s like that, right? You know you’re supposed to do something that is really really really important, but your mind refuses?

Anyway, about my SIU Sunday updates…. It been going okay. I’ve been riding my bike a lot and making sure to eat as healthy as possible. The first few days I didn’t really notice any changes, but after a while, it slowly creeped up on me. My stomach started making some funky noises and some other stuff. I started to feel better but once I got sick, my healthy way of living went down the drain.

Now that I’m feeling better, I’m going to get back on track, because I can now see how much better I felt, eating healthy, being active and so on. So I’m jumping back on the horse tomorrow 🙂

A little life-Update:
This weekend was supposed to be fun-filled – the boyfriend and I had plans to go to the movies on Friday and go to a housewarming yesterday, but instead I took care of my boyfriend who had been sick since Thursday…. He’s a lot better, thankfully, but it was a crappy way to spend the weekend. Luckily, he’s off tomorrow and Tuesday, so we’ll get a few extra days together 🙂

Well… I guess I can’t put it off any longer. I’m giving myself 30 minutes to check Facebook, watch a couple of YouTube videos and after that: study for 4 hours! Sounds good, right? 😉

Take Care 🙂

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R.I.P Cory Monteith

I woke up to some very sad news this morning…. Cory Monteith, known for his role as Finn Hudson on Glee, was found dead in his hotelroom in Vancouver. He was only 31 years old. I’m sure most of you know the he had battled with substance abuse for a number of years and went to rehab earlier this year.
It’s so sad that so many people deal with these kinds of problems…. A lof of people get through it but sadly, a lot of people don’t. My thoughs and prayers are with Cory’s family and friends and his fiancée, Lea Michele.

If you’re dealing with any type of problem and feel alone, just know that there are people around you who are more than willing to help you through it. You are not alone.

R.I.P Cory

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Just another blah feeling

Do you ever wake up and just have this pessimistic feeling? I do sometimes and one of them is today. I don’t really know why though. All I know is that it sucks.

All I can think about are all the tings I don’t have and all the negative things instead of all the good things… It is really draining and sucks the good mood out of everything.

I feel like I’ve tried everything but I guess today is just another blah-day….

I really don’t like it when….

So it’s way 3 in the challenge and this time I’m going to tell you about something that makes me uncomfortable. Well there are a lot of things actually so here’s just one of them.

Couples who fight in public.

There’s nothing worse when you go out and a couple in your group starts to fight. It’s awkward for everyone around them and it really puts a damper on things. Not matter how hard you try to ignore it, you just can’t. And the suddenly the girl walk (or storms) off and as a girl you’re obligated to follow. Don’t get me wrong, I’m there for my friends, but I go out to have a good time, dance and laugh, not to spend three hours in a bathroom-stall trying to calm an upset, maybe slightly drunk girl down.

So there ya have it – something that really makes me uncomfortable 😉

XOXO – Maria

School’s in session!

Hello you lovely people 🙂

It’s time for day 2 of the blog every day in May challenge. Today I’ll educate you on something I know a lot about.

Today’s subject: Depression

I know, I know, not the funniest subject but it’s something I know a lot about. You see, my mom has suffered from depression for most of her life and I experienced it first-hand. The good, the bad and the very very ugly. When you know someone with the desease, you’ll find out what being low really means. She would cry, have nightmares and just be sad throughout the day. Unfortunately, some people start to drink to numb the pain. My mother was no different and it was a tough time. I never told anyone about what was going on at home because it was a taboo at the time. This meant that I was alone with all of thing pain, hate, dispair… So I decided to do some research about it. I learned how to deal with my mom and how I could help her. When I was 16, she finally decided to get help. She talked to her doctor and went to rehab.

I’m not sure how many of you know this, but depression isn’t just about being down and sad. Nor is it always due to something terrible that has happen to or around you. Nope, you can actually inherit it and have it ‘in’ you. What is means, is that you’re not capable of producing a ‘drug’ in your brain called serotonin. This is one of the things in your brain that ‘makes you happy’. Kind of like endorphins. And this is what I suffer from. Now, I don’t want anyone to feel sorry for me – I’ve felt enough sorry for myself to last a million lifetimes 😉 It’s something you can live with and this is what I do. So, just like people take their vitamins or what not, I have to take a tiny pill called mirtazapin every night. This pumps up the serotonin-levels and makes me sleep. So it’s kind of like a wonder-pill.

So there you have it. A little bit about depression. I could write a book about it, because there’s a lot to it, but this is just a taste 😉

XOXO – Maria

Day… 1? 1½? ½?

Whenever I’m down, or things are going not well, my apartment seems to suffer from it too. I go into this weird state where everything around me goes way down on my list. This could be cooking, cleaning, laundry…. I just don’t have the energy! And I’m not ashamed to say it either.

And while we’re on the subject – am I the only one who secretly hate those friends who, granted on the outside, seem to have it all together: The house is spotless, they cook amazing, healthy things every night, money is no problem whatsoever…. Grrrrr! And while I smile and listen to their uuuuhhhmaaazing lives and perfect boyfriends, I imagine a teeny tiny devil that’s pouring some sort of icky stuff all over her that smells really bad…. Wow I really sounded like a pissed off teenager there, huh?

Okay, I’m getting off track here. What I think I’m trying to say here is that instead of being jealous of what other people have and how other people live their lives, I should focus on what I can do with MY life.

Step one: tackle that load of dishes that’s been staring angrily at me for a few day… A clean kitchen is a happy kitchen, right? Who knows, maybe I’ll even do the laundry later… I know, I’m SUCH a cleaning-rebel…. rawwwrrrr!

XOXO – Maria

Blog every day in May – My life!

2 posts in one day? I know, it’s crazy!

But I was surfing around the net, and I found this great blog Story Of My Life . Jenni, the blogger has started this little challenge where you have to blog EVERY DAY in May! I though it would be a fun thing to do, so I decided to join in. I’m going to give you the full list, so you’ll know what to expect and right after that, you find the first post 🙂

Day 1, Wednesday: The story of your life in 250 words or less (or one paragraph… no one will be counting your words… probably)
Day 2, Thursday: Educate us on something you know alot about or are good at. Take any approach you’d like (serious and educational or funny and sarcastic)
Day 3, Friday: Things that make you uncomfortable
Day 4, Saturday: Favorite quote (from a person, from a book, etc) and why you love it
Day 5, Sunday: Publicly profess your love and devotion for one of your blogger friends. What makes them great? Why do you love them? If you don’t have blogger friends, talk about a real-life friend or even a family member
Day 6, Monday: If you couldn’t answer with your job, how would you answer the question, ‘what do you do’?
Day 7, Tuesday: The thing(s) you’re most afraid of
Day 8, Wednesday: A piece of advice you have for others. Anything at all.
Day 9, Thursday: A moment in your day (this can be just a photo or both a photo and words)
Day 10, Friday: Most embarrassing moment (s). Spill.
Day 11, Saturday: Sell yourself in 10 words or less
Day 12, Sunday: What do you miss? (a person, a thing, a place, a time of your life…)
Day 13, Monday: Issue a public apology. This can be as funny or as serious or as creative as you want it to be.
Day 14, Tuesday: Ten things that make you really happy
Day 15, Wednesday: A Day in the life (include photos from throughout your typical day – this could be “a photo an hour” if you’d like)
Day 16, Thursday: Something difficult about your “lot in life” and how you’re working to overcome it
Day 17, Friday: A favorite photo of yourself and why
Day 18, Saturday: Tell a story from your childhood. Dig deep and try to be descriptive about what you remember and how you felt.
Day 19, Sunday: Five of your favorite blogs and what you love about them
Day 20, Monday: Get real. Share something you’re struggling with right now.
Day 21, Tuesday: A list of links to your favorite posts in your archives
Day 22, Wednesday: Rant about something. Get up on your soapbox and tell us how you really feel. (a pet peeve, a current event, a controversial topic, something your husband or roommate or neighbor or boss does that really ticks you off)
Day 23, Thursday: Things you’ve learned that school won’t teach you
Day 24, Friday: Your top 3 worst traits
Day 25, Saturday: Something someone told you about yourself that you’ll never forget (good or bad)
Day 26, Sunday: Something you read online. Leave a link and discuss, if you’d like.
Day 27, Monday: A letter to your readers
Day 28, Tuesday: Only pictures
Day 29, Wednesday: Five songs or pieces of music that speak to you or bring back memories. Use Grooveshark or YouTube to include them in the post
Day 30, Thursday: React to this term: Letting Go
Day 31, Friday: A vivid memory

My life so far:

So, I was born in 1984, the youngest of 3, older sister (8 years older) and older brother (12 years older).

Lived in our family home until I was 10 when my parents split up. My mom and I moved to her hometown.

Finished school at 16, went to what we here in Denmark called Gymnasium, dropped out 1½ years later. Went to Northern Ireland as an au pair. Came home a year later. Worked different jobs, moved a lot, started school, dropped out. Met a guy when I was 22, left him 5 years later because he wasn’t good for me. He was abusive and there were times where I didn’t see family or friends because they didn’t like him, for very obvious reasons. I tried getting out of it a lot of times, But you have to be strong to do it, and I was when I finally decided to call it quits. The best decision I’ve every made!

In the meantime I’d started and finished something called HG.

Started getting my degree as a socialworker last year – met my current boyfriend in November 2012. He is the best thing that’s happened to me in a long time. Supportive, loving, funny – everything I could ever want and I couldn’t be happier 😉

I’ve since then switched career and will be starting on my degree in Marketing Management this fall 🙂 And that my life so far 😉